Life, love and problems

 I started up my blog again and this time I will stick to it.  I haven't been feeling well, lately, so I have decided maybe it's time to go back to the doctor.  I hate going to doctors, but I need to know what's wrong with me.  Maybe the reason I don't like going to the doctor because I always think, the news is going to be bad.  Long life doesn't  run on my mother's side of the family. I think her mother live to be sixty-two. My mother is seventy-one, but she has all kinds of heath issues. Funny I use to be as health as a horse.  I rarely even had a cold until I got up in my forties. I can't blame anyone but myself. Poor dieting and lot of junk food didn't help. Still, I am hopeful that I will get well soon.  Somehow I will maintain a healthier lifestyle,  but no more crazy diet. I tried them all.  Anyone ever heard of the wiener diet? Believe it or not I actually lost five pounds on that crazy diet, but then I gain pounds right back the following week. Of course, I had to try the seven eggs a day dieted and  no other food.  I was just asking for a heart attack. I even tried the liquor diet, manage to stay on it for a whole day. The next day I ate everything in sight.  In my defense, I was young and stupid.   You name the diet, and I have tried it. I got so disgusted that I vow never to diet again and just accept whatever I weigh. One day  someone took a picture of me at work.   I stared into this obese and tired all the time woman's smiling face, and I wondered HOW THE HECK DID I GET SO BIG. When I weight the next morning, I weight at 235 pounds that was fifteen years ago. Since then I've lost weight  and  gain it back. This time I want to try something different. First, I'm not going to diet anymore. I will try to work out a healthier way of eating and like myself know matter what I weigh. I know it will be a lifestyle change for the rest of my life. I want to live to see my eighties. My dad's mother is ninety-eight. I just need the write tools. There are plenty of weight-loss programs, but  l'm just not sure which one is for me. I like to lose forty pounds though. With the help of God, I know I can do it. I will post my progress each month.