Finding the Time (A rant on trying to do something you love.)

I am a little jealous of authors who write books, especially the ones who write every month. I try not to be that kind of person because I'm a Christian,  but I want to be a writer. I haven't wrote my first book, yet. I've been working on my rough draft for three years! I finally got serious with it and set a dateline on my birthday, and then I realize today that wasn't going to happen. I don't think my characterization is strong enough, and it's taking me too long just to go over one chapter. I do have a problem with grammar, but I've someone who can edite my final draft If I ever finish. When I hear about people like Amanda Hocking writing a book in one week, I wonder what is wrong with me? Am I really a writer, or I'm just kidding myself? I've asked God this question, and His answer to me is that I can't stop writing. My number one problem is finding the time. Since my mother has been sick, I've had to take over all the chores that she used to do. I never realize how much she did. Plus I still have a job, and then my mother lives with me, and she has dementia. Today I felt like giving up when I realized I couldn't meet my date line. I don't know the answer to why it takes people longer to write, but I know that despite what I just wrote there is no giving up for me this time. I can only keep asking God to show me the way.

The Battlefield and My Mother

 I'm trying not to worry about my mother because God doesn't want me to worry. She has one problem after another. First, her feet keep swelling. It has been almost a year since the surgery, and it's still swelling. Lately, her tongue has begun to bother her again. She has had a problem with acid for last three years, but recently, the acid has begun to put blisters on her tongue. It actually hurt for her to swallow. My mother does take acid medicine. In fact, I had to change her medicine three times this year. It hurts to see her in so much pain. I want her days to be peace. I can count on my fingers how many good days she has had in the last two months. For me, the worst part is her dementia. My mother use to be brave when she first started having different kinds of illness, but then she started losing her memory and becoming confuse. Now she's like a different person especially when she get ill from having acid reflux. She's angry and sometimes she won't take her medicine. I love her, and I want her to live to see her eighties. No one on my mother side of the family has ever reach that age. I pray God will once again heal my mother.

Tablet Fix

I finally have my Samsung Galaxy tablet fix. I have been using my Kindle Fire tablet as a replacement, but I miss this one maybe because it  has a bigger screen. I know I missed Google Play. Kindle FIRE has some nice apps, but it's nothing like Google. I have to admit I was a bit disappointed that I was having to replace the battery already. I only had  the tablet for  four months. I had to search the web to find out what was wrong. I had try all the methods that I got off of YouTube and none of them work. I finally came across a video that showed how to change the battery after I realize it had to be something wrong with it.  I bought the battery from Amazon for Samsung Galaxy 10.1. I'm including a video from YouTube, but I think the package does include a video on how to replace the battery. Since I'm all thumbs, I had my nephew change the battery.

My Helper

I’m trying something new with writing my post. I thought that I would write my thought on paper first before I posted. After reading an author talk about how she always writes her books by hand I decided that I can at least write my post. I have using a computer for thirteen years, and I would feel lost without it. However, it does help to write things down. Also, I had a wonderful day. I manage to get everything I had to do thanks to God done with only two hours of sleep. My list included the following: cooking, house cleaning, writing, posting on this blog, grocery shopping, giving my mother her meds, making sure she checks her sugar, cutting the yard and reading.